two faces

i need to write another song.


i wrote one about coming to a realization of where i was.

i need to write this new one about the sad, disappointing realization of where someone else is. it honestly makes me sick to my stomach, to think about the deception, the mockery, the wasted effort involved. I cannot comprehend what goes on in the mind of someone who could behave in such a way as this... to speak words of encouragement and not have any genuine, consistent thought or action to back it up. to speak words of compassion when there is no empathy, there is no sense of self-lessness, only self-preservation and self-glorification.

i suppose that is how we all act apart from a real, interactive relationship with the person of Jesus.

i suppose that i have been capable of such foolishness, and probably been the one at fault as much as i feel the victim at the moment.


but i know that i would seek to have Christ glorified in complete honesty, ultimately.

and i know that this individual does not place honesty, or relationships, or growth, in a place of high priority.