there are some experiences in life that just give you the oddest sensations...
sitting at a picnic table, watching as friends from years past walk slowly towards you across physical space, while memories rush you overwhelmingly from all sides. at a party for a friend, i saw people that helped me grow up when i first came to college... the man who taught me to lead worship... sisters who were patient with me and helped me understand a little of how girls work... brothers who beat me up and laughed with me and encouraged me to continue writing songs... a few people i hadn't seen in over 2 years, or more... it all seemed pretty surreal...
yet another feeling that lingers...
the slow, aching realization that there has been infidelity in a relationship... sometimes it can be a really quick stab that causes internal emotional bleeding... but sometimes it's this numb ache that creeps into your spirit and feels almost crippling... it has spread over me like some sort of pitch or tar, and i can't seem to get it off... the more i try to brush it away, the more deeply it rubs into my skin and gets under my fingernails. i really need to figure out how to process this, though.
girls are the devil.
this week absolutly flew by... if this is any indication of the rest of this year, i'm a little worried... i fell asleep on the couch watching my favorite TV show, being re-run at 1am... i've NEVER fallen asleep on the couch watching TV before... i have to face that i'm old, and becoming something like my dad... who ALWAYS fell asleep watching TV, favorite show or not. He fell asleep in church a lot too... so maybe as long as i keep THAT from happening, i'll be allright.
but, i could stand to sleep a bit more...
so goodnight.
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just a thought here Dave...and i'm sure you already know this so I'm probably wasting my breath.
You might want to consider the types of girls that you are looking for...the girl with the best tan or the nicest body might not be the best if you are looking for emotional support and deep relationships.
i love you man, hang in there.
yeah... ironically enough, neither of those things attracted me to this most recent person... they actually were cause for my hesitation... it was the "depth" of conversation that i perceived which initially drew me to her... so i really don't know what to trust at the moment...
(i'm not saying that at some point the appearance issues didn't come into play)
["i really need to figure out..."]
i'll be honest, that was encouraging to see.
ditto for jeff's last line. and don't let yourself forget, you've got people behind you :)
^smart girl
I think my full opinion is that you need to be a little more willing to let the relationship happen, rather than forcing immediate deep conversation. It seems like most of the best relationships I know (including my own...ahhhhh :)) started because a friendship developed into something more.
btw, I'm ready to review your CD...
ditto for jeff's last line. again.
no, i think you were right at first...girls are the devil. :)
well, this girl is going to forgo her inherently characteristic devilry and refrain from saying that yes, girls are problematic, to grossly understate, but that I would only make such an admission by adding that guys are no less culpable. just in different ways.
oh...did i say refrain? :)
anyway, i hope we can all keep from kidding ourselves. if i can admit to the faults of my 'fairer' sex, guys can do the same for their own, right? right?
i had a moment of randomness and noseyness...and what do i find but that there are indeed gringos (^)out there who actually CAN habla some espanol bastante bien! te felicito, amigo, porque eres de lo poco
i know that this is my fourth or fifth comment and i need to stop using other ppl's blogs to run my mouth...
but just wanted to say to anyone who might care, that i didn't mean to preach two comments ago...i'm kinda thinking it wasn't necessary. it didn't come from a lack of compassion, I'll tell you that.
so, sometimes i have a tendency to throw things out there without much consideration..mi mal.
and i am your 11th comment on this post
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